The day I'll give up!

I don’t know when I’ll give up

Will it be the day

When one more person will start humiliating me

Or

When again due to misunderstanding I would be punished again.

Will it be the day

When one more person I trust’ll ditch me

Or

When in all I’ll be the only person left standing.

Will it be the day

When all the people I love’ll go away from me

Or

When I’ll loose all the modes of contact I have with them

Will it be the day

When I’ll be sad

Or

When I’ll have nothing to smile about.

Will it be the day

When I’ll loose all the hope

Or

When I’ll only have regrets and nothing to hope for.

Will it be the day

When I’ll die

Or

When I’ll nothing to live for

Will it be the day

When I’ll loose moments of joy

Or

When I’ll find no enjoyment in anything

Will it be the day 

When everything around me will go dak

Or

I myself will be blind enough to see the light in front of me!

(Or the beauty around me)

Will it be the day

When all the people around me turns into a psycho

Or

When I’ll be the psycho myself!

Will it be the day

When I’ll find living very hard

Or

When I’ll find dying very easy.

THAT GIRL!!!!!

Drunk on confusion,

I dont know where to start

For I find no words

to explain the dwellings of my heart.

I tread along the journey,

for somewhere the road should initiate

It marks the glories of a girl

whose thoughts did wonders to create

Pardon me,for i dont intend to humiliate

In boring class,

Apart we sat,

There was an unfathomable depth in your eyes,

I couldn't percept.

With quiet lips

And chaos in the mind

She pens the most overwhelming words

that one couldn't have entwined.

IF ONLY.....

From the beginning of the day

To the very end

All I think about is you

While twisting and turning my strands

If only..

You would know my name

All the time I look out for you

For your mere glance

Helps me forget all my miseries

And hence I wouldn't miss a chance

If only...

You would look at me once

The very thought of you interests me

Me and you,that's what I fantasize

I wanna map my whole life with you

To be together,I can pay any price

If only...

You would know I exist.

SCARS

It is been rightly said that the language is scarce

For the words are not enough to describe

The pain inflicted upon me

I have been wounded many times

Some do heal

But some leave behind

A constant reminder

Of the betrayal

Of the misery

Of the broken trust

Of the void left in me

That God knows what could fill it back

All in the form of scars

They over shadow me

And tend to never leave my side

When in dark or light

And prove to be

A constant reminder

Of my mistake

Of my consent

Of my very acceptance of the fate

Of the treacherous happiness

That my heart felt

Which appears fake

Something which my traitorous heart tricked me into…

I tried to erase them

Screen them

And what not

To conceal myself

Of the loss I suffered

Of this unendurable agony

Of the tasted forbidden fruit

Of the beautiful possibility of the road not taken

And the magnificent landscapes I would have adored

While treading the unknown territories

But my feet abandoned those prospects…

The scars are dreadful and unbearable

I don’t thank for their presence

Each individual could construe them their way

But I would brand them as lessons and await the tomorrow

Which shells the hopeful pearls

Of my glory

Of the zenith I would embrace

Of the happiness kissing me

Of the perpetuation of risks

For no matter how many nightmares I encounter

I would not stop looking for the dreams…

Which could accept me Along with my scars

However gruesome they may be

For the burnt pages make

The book worth reading…

(even if I would have to dance alone in the rain)